Really think about it. I’m emtionally hurt deep down. I’m somewhat depressed. I am ignoring all the signals to just live a better life. I’m trying to hold up strong and willful. I’m being a child, thinking if I ignore it, it’ll go away. I end up thinking about it and wondering to myself why am I ignoring it. Why am I always wrong. Why do I ignore things and then when I do say somthing about it, people tell me im wrong, etc. Life, I finally understand how everyone use the saying “Noone understands.” I used to think “Well, noone understands because you’re not making them understands.” I was wrong, “Noone understands because noone cares enough to understand.” The Life we live. How do we put up with our lives and others? Idgi. How do people do it? #life #confusing #alone #misunderstandings #teenage into #adult #live #love #hope
June 2013
5 posts
Sick of dealing with you, hiding how I truly feel. Yet, one frigging day I express myself and you don’t even try to understand. Who the hell gives you the right to be better? Because you have money? The hell with money. I could care less. If you think by not helping me, makes me love you more? You’re frigging retarded.
The hell with you being right all the damn time, the hell with you being the boss. I always frigging listened to you, I’m sick and done.
Now, I truly know why I shouldn’t have even relied on you in the first place.
The hell, you don’t even visit me how he hell would I do it. Your the one with a car.
Don’t frigging expect somthing if you ain’t doing anything in return also.
You just lost my respect and love.
Just, fu and everything eles!!
When we’ve known eachother for only do long, they start thinking their your next friend, they start asking to eat out together, when they start doing all the same thing you do, especially when they start asking you for clothes, when wtf we ain’t even the same damn size, Wtf are you thinking!? Are you frigging retarded or something?! I ain’t jour sister where you can squeeze into my stuff, I ain’t your sister to ignore your flaws, ugh. It’s been an ongoing thing, the hell. -_- im so sick of you honestly. I apologize, but seriously your the first person I can get so sick of for just sitting there. I never knew id dislike someone this much for nothing.
Just leave.
I don’t even think we’re close enough to say “we”. How annoying -___-
April 2013
1 post
hard. People will say over and over it’s easy. I’ll get it through. Babysteps first, but sigh. I’m diving all over the place. Going no where. Not knowing what to do. I made a decision where I’d lose so much. To have so little. Not going anywhere. Not knowing who to tell it to. But, letting it out all in my little room. To myself. These secrets I hold, these horrible things I can only keep to myself. No one will know. No one will be able to understand these feelings.
You’ve gave me too many scars. Sometimes it may bring me down, where I cannot bring myself up. Although it’s been in the past, it’s still a scar forever. -.- I’m holding it in, I’m willing to take this much sacrifice to save everyone from hurting, being confused and what not. But still people turn to me and say I’m at fault. I never thought in my life, I’d say this but…”No one really will understand.” - Whenever people said it, I always thought… they’re just not paying enough attention to those who does care, but no. Everyone is too selfish to care.
Why are people so damn selfish, why do they do the things they do, why do they hurt others as if it’s nothing, why does people make life so hard, when in the end, we get nothing even if we school, we aren’t getting good paying jobs, there’s no point of school if we spend so much, we’ll just put ourselves in debt, why are people so damn cruel in this world,
Sighhhhh, this kind of feeling is lost, and will be continued again.. ;/ blah!!
<3ChouaH
February 2013
7 posts
In a relationship, if one of the person loves the other person too much, the other will always look at another person. -_- #those fools who take #others for granted screw you. -.-
Dumb girl ain’t studying, but just giggling! !! Ugh, can I get some peace! -_- you’re really annoying when I’m really trying to study this stupid easy stuff. But, I cannot concentrate with that kind of noise, please just please stop getting all the Damn attention. You’ll be fine with just that computer screen. Geez woman!
Why is it so frigging hard to get back on track. Anything I do, I’m distracted. And v then bam, my wonderful day goes to waste. Such as drag! !! I hate these feelings. Just pick me back up and finish what I started. One weekend, four amazing Damn days and I lost all the dang motivation. -_- gosh, why!!!! #angry @ #myself.
